Health Anxiety, Money Anxiety, and the Fear of Loss

As highly sensitive people we’re physiologically wired to look for what’s wrong or amiss. While this hypervigilence once served us and our community extremely well when we were living in the outback or jungle and we were the first to scan the horizon to notice the slight wisp of smoke that signaled that a band of marauders was a few miles a way or the slight change in grass the indicated a tiger around the next bend, this evolutionary advantage can feel like a curse in modern culture. It’s fair to say that at least one element of modern anxiety is our evolutionary advantage, the part of our brains that kept entire villages alive, left hanging. As it’s primary job has been taken away, it now swerves into the path of least resistance, which often looks like scanning the inner horizon for danger: Am I with the right partner? (Is love safe?); Will I harm someone? (Am I safe?); Will I have enough money? (Am I secure?) Do I have a terminal illness? (Is life safe?) Is the planet going to be okay? (Are we all safe?)

You can see the through-line in these perseverations: the need for safety and security. At the core of intrusive thoughts is the need for safety. We need to know that we’re okay. We need to know that, no matter what, we will be taken care of.

For many of my clients and course members, once their relationship anxiety eases and they’re able to name their projections, correct their distorted expectations about love, and attend to their pain at the level of root cause, their anxiety attaches onto the next storyline, which is often health. For others, the hat of anxiety hangs on the whack-a-mole of storylines – relationship, sexuality, health, money, death – within the same day and sometimes within the same hour. However and whenever your anxiety manifests, worrying about health, death, and struggling with change are the modern-day equivalent of scanning the horizon for a threat. What we’re being asked now is how to re-channel this healthy evolutionary advantage of hypervigilence into its next incarnation in a way that serves us and others instead of keeping us trapped in the torture realm of the anxious mind.

How do we do this?

We do this by attending to the core need that anxiety presents, which, as I’ve said, is the need for safety and security. And we find the courage to recognize that at the deepest level what we’re talking about is the fear of death. When we spiral into health anxiety we find the fear of death. When we chip away at money anxiety we see that the fear of death lies at the core. So we come now to the deepest fear that human beings must face, and one that our modern culture fails miserably at helping us to contain in healthy ways. In other cultures and other eras, this primal and universal fear was contained through time-honored rituals, ancient myths, and being held in the web of the community. We have none of these soul-soothers available to us, which means we’re left to create our own attempts at finding footholds into the ever-changing landscape of being human. Enter: anxiety and intrusive thoughts.

There is a better way, and I’ll be teaching this way in a course I’ll be releasing soon called “Grace Through Uncertainty: A 30-day course to become more comfortable with the fear of  loss by falling in love with life.” I’m very excited about this course, as it was birthed not only from listening to you, my audience, for many years talking about your health anxiety and fear of loss, but also through my own journey of wrestling through these terrifying realms and coming out the other side with more serenity and equanimity in the face of loss and the threat of death than I ever thought possible.

I’ve offered you a roadmap to navigate your way through relationship anxiety. I’ve offered 30-day courses to help you open your heart and learn to trust yourself and love yourself. Now it’s time to dig deeply into the center of our beings and hold hands as we leap into the fears and uncertainty that populate most people’s minds yet very few people talk about.

By the way, for those of you who cringe at the phrase “embodied spiritual practice” because of your negative associations with organized religion or the word God, rest assured that the course focuses on spirituality in a way that includes a wide-net understanding of the divine. For even for those who say “I’m an atheist – I don’t believe in anything”, when you probe gently and deeply enough find that they do have a relationship to a greater, ineffable oneness. As Buddhist teacher Jack Kornfield writes in A Lamp in the Darkness: Illuminating the Path Through Difficult Times”:

You’ve had many tastes of the ever-present mystery and beauty of existence: when you’ve been present at the birth of a child, or in the timeless silence when you first saw the Grand Canyon or looked through a telescope at the stars and galaxies. In those moments your concerns were not with your difficulties. You were a conscious part of the miraculous eternal present moment.

As always when working holistically with anxiety, we address the foundational layer and we work with on-the-spot tools to help rewire our habitual fear-and-panic response to symptoms or triggers. For those of you currently suffering from health anxiety, I want to offer an effective on-the-spot tool to facilitate this rewiring. In these moments, we need cut-through questions that loosen fear’s stronghold. If you’re wired toward anxiety, fear will almost always be your default response to a new feeling, thought, or symptom. So we have to have questions immediately ready to create new neural pathways and change the fear-track.

One of the best questions to ask when fear takes over is, “What else could it be?” For example, one night I woke up with a new pain in my side, and my first thought was, “It’s ovarian cancer.” The thought was so immediate that it felt like it was coming from my well of Knowing, not from Fear. But that’s the trickiest part about fear: it can sound so certain and real. Because I know my mind as well as I do, I didn’t hook in and instead asked, “What else could it be?”

Once you ask the question, you can then approach the sensation through the lens of curiosity. When I approached the pain in my side from another angle and asked “What else could it be?” I heard a quiet voice say, “My ovaries are sad.” As soon as I heard those words, my body dropped down several notches. My ovaries were, indeed, sad as they were preparing to walk through the portal of ending their primary function in my body. They were going through a death experience as they began to close down shop and stop releasing eggs each month. I could latch onto the literal interpretation of cancer or I could sink into the metaphor that this part of my body was dying, an aspect of my life and identity as a childbearing woman was dying, but my physical body was not dying.

The same process can be applied to any type of anxiety. A thought about your partner or about your job darts into your mind and you immediately believe it. A friend says something and you immediately interpret it in the worst possible way. Or you have a feeling or sensation and you immediately interpret it through a catastrophic lens (I’m dying). If, instead, you develop the habit of asking the cut-through question, “What else could it be?” you’ll diffuse the power of fear.

The path through anxiety is fundamentally about learning to unhook from the fear-stories and choosing to walk along another road, one that includes a great deal of curiosity and tenderness at the core. In a few weeks, you will walk alongside each other as you learn to apply the principles you’ve learned through your struggles with other anxiety stories to health anxiety and the fear of loss. I look forward to seeing you there.

23 comments to Health Anxiety and the Fear of Loss

  • Anne

    Sign me up! Sending my five year old to special education kindergarten tomorrow and these are some of my thoughts: Will the teachers get her? (Is she safe?) Will they like her? (Is she safe?) Can they handle her meltdowns with compassion? (Is she safe?) As always, thanks for the helpful blog post. <3

  • Aaron

    I’m looking forward to this course! I’m nearly finished with the marriage preparation course currently and have been noticing that since I’m resolving that anxiety I’ve been experiencing ambiguous anxiety, sometimes targeted. It’s amazing how much I can relate to you and what you write. Thank you for sharing this information with all of us who are similar.

  • Cady Kuhlman

    This post was god sent timing! I truly feel like my deep inner work over the last months has allowed for me to release myself from relationship anxiety. Since then however, I have convinced myself that I now have 2-3 chronic diseases. So my anxiety has left my brain about my wonderful, loving devoted partner and has now transferred over to worries about my own health and eventual death. I simply cannot wait for you course! You have been life changing for me, Sheryl.

  • Tara

    I love this post, Sheryl. As a current participant in your Open Your Heart program, I’ve been marveling at how perfectly your work dovetails with other therapy and self-work I’ve been doing in relation to chronic pain. I’ve experienced the exact phenomenon you noted in your post: as relationship anxiety quieted over the past years (although never entirely subsided), fear and anxiety about my physical health and well-being took over, manifesting in all kinds of physical pain (knees, ankles, feet, back, neck, elbows). I was fortunate to stumble upon a program that focuses on the mind/body connection in regards to pain and how, essentially, the pain is just a manifestation of the fear, anxiety, stress, and instability we feel in our lives. For us highly sensitive folks, chronic pain and the anxiety and fear around that pain, can take over our lives in very similar ways to relationship anxiety. Anyway, thank you for addressing this issue in the amazing way you do everything else!

    • Amy

      Hi Tara,

      I recognize myself in your description of anxiety and stress manifesting as different types of body pain. It’s happened to me as far back as I can remember. Would you mind sharing the program that has helped you with that? If there’s an issue with posting that publicly I’d be happy to give you my personal email.


  • Sarah

    Wow. So pertinent. Thank you again and ag for your beautiful and unique interpretation of what anxiety is trying to tell us.

  • I’m so glad the post was helpful and hit home. I’ll look forward to seeing some of you on the course!

  • Jen

    An interesting look at this very topic is:Freedom from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder: A Personalized Recovery Program for Living with Uncertainty, by Dr. Grayson. Unfortunately, it does not contain the spiritual components that you include, but sounds like the core message is very similar.

  • Brooke

    After dealing with relationship anxiety with my husband for the last two years I started to really accept and understand the real ebb and flow of marriage and the feelings that accompany it. Then we started trying for a baby. I found myself deep in what ifs. As of Thursday we experienced our first miscarriage and the rampant thoughts are trying their hardest to take me under. Anxiety is most definitely a game of whack a mole, But i am ready to win.

  • Emily

    Thank you so much for this post! I’m recovering — I hope, assume, trust – from a concussion and/or whiplash a month or so ago, and with lingering symptoms, not to mention feeling like the health professionals weren’t taking my concerns seriously, my health anxiety has been at an unfortunate peak. I hope I’ll be able to take the new course!

  • Kristen

    I got chills of excitement and hope. I cannot wait to join this course. Thank you Sheryl, this is truly a gift to myself and I am sure many others. xox

  • Shannon

    I could definitely use this course! Do you have a time frame of when it will be available?

    Thank you!

  • Thomas

    Hello Sheryl,
    I’ve been with my boyfriend of almost 2 years. I’ve been having so much doubt. Waning in sexual attraction and a massive stomach crunching feeling. I have these thoughts when I’m comfortable it’s only friendly feelings and that I only see him as a friend. I’m scared my relationship is doomed. I am currently 22 years old. Everyone keeps telling me I’m too young but I don’t want to leave him. We had some major bumps and changes in the road early on. I’m scared I’m only convincing myself to be with him. This is also my first relationship so it feels like I don’t know what I am doing. The first idea of love I had has been shattered cause I thought these feelings would last. I’m already an anxious person and I don’t know why this keeps lingering in my head. Google hasn’t really helped either. I don’t know weather this is anxiety or not. I feel so discouraged like finally I have someone treats me nice and wants to work things out. Now I’m being so difficult to my blessings.

  • Kayleen

    I will say asking “what else could it be?” Has been helpful to me lately. I have been struggling spiritually with developing a relationship with God and it has spiked much of my anxiety because everyone from my church has said “God could be talking to you through the cashier at the corner store, or through your co-worker or music” and it has shaken me to the core and now I cant even listen to music, watch TV, or talk to people because I fear someone (the little whisper saying you’re with the wrong person) telling me this or interpreting a show as a message and thinking oh that was God sending someone to tell me that. It’s been very hard especially when I am trying to fill my well of self spiritually but have never been a church goer or bible reader but I have always thought about God and prayed and now it’s like all of a sudden I’m looking to him for answers when I have never been that way and it makes me crazy.

  • Lauren Scott

    Yes! I need this too.. I’ve been dealing with hypochondria for 14 years… off and on… this sounds like it’s going to
    Be so helpful!

  • Mary

    Beautiful piece. This article is like you were talking directly to me. It’s so comforting to know that what I can see as isolating and personal ‘fear’ thoughts are in fact universal for the highly sensitive person. Thank you.

  • That anxiety progression feels very familiar. Years ago it was relationship anxiety and then it moved to health anxiety. I knew it was related to fear of death but that’s a hard one to get over. I love the question you proposed when health anxiety arises: “what else could it be?” That question feels like taking a deep breath.

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