I was playing a game of solitaire the other night and a memory from childhood floated up to consciousness, followed by a wave of grief. I paused the game and breathed deeply into my heart, allowing tears to arrive and roll down my cheeks. As always with big grief, there was a moment when it felt like the pain might overtake me, but I stayed with it as best I could, allowing the wave to crest and eventually crash and subside.

As I was sitting in the aftermath of this great grief, the solitaire game left unfinished on the couch cushions, the lyrics of the Beatles’ “Let It Be” came into my mind:

When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, “Let it be”

And in my hour of darkness, she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, “Let it be”

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

Let It Be

I’ve been thinking a lot about this song lately, and how it encapsulates the heart of inner healing work: how we’re not trying to change our experience so much as we’re learning (maybe re-learning) how to be with it. And also, how we’re not alone when we’re feeling our big feelings. “Mother Mary comes to me” represents our connection to the invisible realms, which include nature, ancestors, dream images, and any other allies or human figures who, when conjured through imagination, bring comfort.

In that moment with the cards, I didn’t try to change the grief. I didn’t try to ignore it, bypass it, judge it, or minimize it. I just… let it be. I breathed with it. I cried. I wrote down a few lines of poem. And then it passed through. As I write these words, I feel the grief swelling up in my heart again, and so, again, I let it be here, infusing these very words with the bittersweet beautiful aliveness of being human.

For it’s when I grieve that my heart opens most fully.

It’s when I grieve that I am most connected to my fellow humans.

It’s when I grieve that I am in the flow of life instead of resisting it.

It’s not only grief, of course, that we seek to allow and “let be.” At the heart of working with anxiety and intrusive thoughts is the intention to allow the thoughts and feelings to be here while choosing which ones we want to act on. As I often write, whatever we water will grow, and whatever we let wither will die. With intrusive thoughts, when we learn how to “let them be” without trying to push them away or water them, they eventually wither.

This is a practice, and Paul McCartney understood this.

The Key to Working with Intrusive Thoughts

When it comes to relationship anxiety – or any anxiety/OCD theme – the crux of finding freedom isn’t about trying to get rid of the difficult thoughts and corresponding compulsions; it’s about shifting how we relate to them. And when we shift how we relate to them, the ones we call intrusive become less intrusive because we’re not giving them so much energy.

What’s fascinating about the difference between people who struggle with anxiety or OCD and those who don’t is NOT that those who don’t are somehow immune to random thoughts. It’s that they don’t give them credence. If they have a thought like, “What if I don’t love my partner?” they think, “Hmmm… weird thought,” and they move onto the next moment.

In other words, everyone has the same thoughts, but some people don’t pay much to attention to the ones that we deem as “weird, dark, intrusive, unwanted.” They just… let them be. More sensitive people prone to anxiety have a hard time letting things be. We ascribe meaning to everything, we want to understand everything, we want everything to be just right and just so and, quite often, perfect. This includes not only our outer world in terms of our relationships, career, house, kids but also our inner world in terms of which thoughts and feelings we deem as acceptable.

If only we knew that all thoughts and feelings are acceptable…

If only we were taught early on that thoughts and feelings are not facts…

…how much less suffering there would be.

This is what we learn now, as adults, when we embark on a healing path. We learn to bring a sense of kindness or friendliness to our inner world, to all of our thoughts and feelings and experiences, and also a sense of curiosity.

We learn the art of discernment which allows us to choose which thoughts and feelings to water and which to let be.

We learn how to grow an inner parent and witness so that we can access that all-important choice point.

With relationship anxiety, we learn how to stop interpreting every thought and feeling as evidence that we’re with the wrong person and instead choose which ones to “let be” and which ones to explore what might be embedded within in (we’re NOT exploring the content of the thoughts; we’re exploring the unmet needs and ruptures that live at the core of the thought.)

This is how we heal relationship anxiety at the root: learning accurate information about love, sex, and attraction so that we can correct cognitive distortions, then delving into the deeper work of attending to the scared places inside that are keeping real, available, safe love at arm’s length.

Are you ready to heal? Come join us for my only LIVE round of Break Free From Relationship Anxiety, which will start on Sunday, February 26th, 2023. I look forward to connecting with you there.

And if you haven’t listened to Let It Be in a while, have a listen! I hope it brings you as much comfort as it brings me.


P.S.: If you’re on the fence about taking the course, I encourage you to read through the testimonials on this page. Also, ForeverHopeful, a longtime course member, shared this comment on last week’s blog post:

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